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this is a journal i've kept for you since i first found out about you. it contains all the things i've wanted to tell you about and that you'll hopefully be able to understand someday.  how we found out about you your birth story entry for 9/11 journal entries: older latest diaryland.com mum's daily journal dad's project leave a message for zygote boi here
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2001-07-24 - 2:25 a.m. your first month Dearest Q-- It has been nearly four weeks since the day you were born. Right now I am writing as you hopefully drift off to sleep. We often put you in the bassinet and turn the bathroom fan on, since that seems to be a calming noise for you. You have taught me a lot in the past month. For one thing, patience. And to move more slowly. And what life is really about--caring for someone and having love so unconditional sometimes it scares you. Your father and I have also made some adjustments to our lives as well. We've had this "dance" of readjustment--we have started to realize that our lives in the daily sense have changed dramatically, and we are sometimes a bit too stubborn to make those changes. Your first month on the "outside" was challenging, and often I think I dwell on the difficulties involved. I had a bit of a hard time adjusting once you were born. I remember looking at myself in the mirror often, and thinking to myself that I'd never seen a more tired-looking person in my entire life. I felt fatigue and utter exhaustion like I had never felt these things in my entire life. And I was anxious, a bit depressed, intimidated by all of it. I had a bit of a hard time adjusting to your schedule too. But as time has worn on, we find ourselves adjusting. I've learned to adjust and live off of less sleep, for one thing. We will see what the next month holds for the both of us. Until then, sleep tight, little prince
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